Friday, December 26, 2008

the Tales of Beedle the Bard

Here are some of the events that I attended for the past 2 weeks of holidays. More pictures will be uploaded soon at MySpace, Friendster, Facebook and Flickr. Firstlty is Rock the World Concert. Frankly speaking I'm not a big fan of live gigs not until aizat and arab introduced me to their world. Bittersweet, Estrange, Esterella, Butterfingers and One Buck Short to name a few. Who says Malaysian bands are not up to a good standard? Wait until you listen to Stay from Esterella, a slow & contemporary tune and Kucing Hitam from Bittersweet.

Pergi situ dengan Aizat Tibi, Hanif, Adzraf Arab & Market and coincidentally I bumped into Kimi and bumped into college friends Azral wearing black hat haha and Noma, complaining how terrible the crowd was. I kinda agree with him though.

hey i'm still a virgin cuz i don't smoke! :)

lets practice yoga . lol neutralising the scene with our aura. can u feel the heat, the warmness & friendliness?

wecho park yeyyo!
wow, a shooting star! click the picture & zoom it. there's stars too.

for the very first time in my life, i saw 2 pengkids. hot jugak lah :P hahaha very interesting.

The other day went for a shisha with good friends Nazirah, Aiman, Megat and Chris at the Castle, Ampang. and last week went to M.O.S wednesday night, R&B Night
That evening went for a picnic at KLCC Park. You guys might be wondering why, why and why?
Baught kfc chicken, miya brought his own cooking made pasta and pudding. not bad not bad guess i'll have to learn from you. adilah with her cookies, doughnut and fruits. and there's wan shin, irene, anuar and lyanna.

betrayal, denial & poyo-nial


ngeh, superheroes

potong stim la budak belakang tu. u just spoiled the whole picture!

Oh, this picture has been ages .. megat, zhafran (took the picture), liyana, raja, shakina & fatina

Went out with aiman, liyana, khairin, azlikha & sofiya. i really suck in this game big time! it's like striking off a ball with a chopstick!!! bapaklah susah giler do.

suppp homiess???


I'm still waiting for pictures from Shakina at kedai kopi, cepatlah kina! and aizat and adilah.
currently reading Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows, the Tales of Beedle the Bard and looking forward for Dan Brown's Angels & Demons ( from the widely anticipated movie of the Da Vinci Code). it's coming out to cinemas soon biatchhh! yay!
another great week of fun ... next week Port Dickson and Genting here we come!!!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Someday when I grow up I'll understand

Sometimes I can be selfish, just to think about myself, just to get what I want, just to have the feeling to hold and grap anything within my reach so that I feel satisfied, secured and sometimes proud. Everybody has that feeling but to what extent? At the expense of your family and friends? I paused and I think again. Maybe to me is a kind of achievement after all the hard work & effort and consideration you have given in doing something but not to the detriment of others. What I'm saying is you can't be selfish all the time. Well is good to be selfish occasionally but that occasionally can become a repetitive in nature, the more you do it, the more it will become part and parcel of your life.

It has been 4 years now since mum started her Ph.D way back in 2004. Over these times she has been very busy all day and night 24/7 to extent she has to sacrifice her time with her family completing her thesis, visiting various places to collect mouthful data, interviews and interviews and not enough with that, bombarded with a lot of assignments and deadlines. Anyway she's doing value engineering and value analysis. Somehow within her free time she managed to spend her time with us, accompanying me and the rest here and there, shopping, jogging at night, helped her to make fettucini carbonara and extremely delicious deserts to name a few. But what did I do in return? Complain? Nagging? Ask them to buy me this and that, send me here and there (though now I can drive). All she asked for is to understand her situation but sometimes I can be too ignorant and selfish, I only think about myself after all the natural love, affection and consideration she has given.

I dunno, maybe I'm too emo now to write here and I hate being emo-ish when I'm writing and it's like a sort of remembrance to me to act good all the time. I don't like that. Time to grow up Rashaad.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

On a lighter note

i'm gonna miss your presence la since you'll be away next semester. u r the burning spirit that keeps me staying alive. i dunno what i will end up without you. u're simply the best a friend could ask for. need i say more? well have fun there, hope you'll enjoy studies and with good philosophy and great charisma of yours, there's nothing can stop you from achieving your dreams.

best regards,

Joyeux Anniversaire Mummy!

Happy Birthday mummy. I love you so much. You are the best mum ever! Well when I was a rugrat, you asked me to call u ibunda and daddy as ayahanda but I was too small to grasp such long words. In the end, it's what I called you now.

I still remember last week, when I asked you, "Mummy kenape orang dulu2 pakai cermin mate besar-besar pastu rambut nak style bushy2 mcm hermione granger? dieorg tak nampak burok ke at that time?"

Stupidity is killing! What the hell I was asking about when I browsed to one of the old classic pictures in 1990's. At that time, big glasses and bushy hair was a trend for women and pakai baju masuk dalam jeans dgn pakai belt atas pinggang menayangkan shape punggung lagi was way not cool! For real, imagine if you see women wearing that these days!

So mum told me, "It's a no problem mummy wearing that those days. Wait till your children ask you later when you grow up."

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Breath of Fresh Air

Bloody hell for the past 1 month was a rough & tough time for me. Er, that's a bad introduction. But the good news is now I'm totally free! 4 weeks of holidays beb! Now that's a short one ey?Who cares now exams are finally over.

Gone are those days when I had sleepless night at foyer pushing beyond my limits, wake up early in the morning just to find free parking space near college even in weekends, eating out at burger ramli to find out I had diarrhea, get caught by pak guard to my miserable attitude for trespassing to Sunway Lagoon via the college Art Gallery, jumping and laughing like hell at the rooftop, foyer, library & everywhere, it was too good to be true I wish I had a time machine to go back to the past. For the first time in my life I hate to admit it but I think I miss college. I miss those moment that we cherished together.

Now it's finally over I can lay back on my comfy bed without having a guilty feeling of not studying. I can walk straight with confidence, look into the mirror with a satisfying heart, I did what I should have done and leave the rest to Him.

Now is 10th of December. A fortnight from now will be Christmas Day and the next thing you know is New Year Eve and comes 2009. 4 months 19 days later is my birthday, going to be 20. 2 months from that I should have finished my ACCA Part 2 here and continue somewhere else. After that I dunno. I hate to plan but it's better planning than procrastinating.

And I shall stop here. Tomorrow I shall have a very good hot shower and hot milo. I'm definitely going to enjoy this holiday.


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

missing you

daym missing u so much. wish i could be there. please upload more pictures, update your blog, download msn & skype, and start playing facebook! wanna ask daddy whether can do acca there or not. :P well haven't celebrated azraa's birthday yet. thought of buying a present for her. she asked for mng but daym i'm broke. well take care always.

Sunday, November 9, 2008


I just realised mostly what I have written here doesn't concern serious issues like Syukri Shairi, Raja Iskandar, Adlan Wafi and Qaisy Jaslenda's. I'm more a laid back person, something that I like to write mostly crap and rubbish stuff.

If you happen to notice, mosts posts I will eventually delete it within 24 hours if it is concerned crappy stuff even it is the best interest in my heart that I like people to read it but I just rather keep it to myself. There's a lot of draft in here, published and re unpublished. You might wondering what the purpose of having a blog when eventually you deleted the posts eh? Well I dunno.

Suddenly I feel like to move to America after watching Disturbia in HBO last night. Frankly speaking, America is the least favourite country I'd like to go even I have been there before when I was younger. Sorry no offence for those who are studying there. I thought England is contrary to America but I was wrong. All western countries are the same! I am relieved when Obama was elected as the new President of America, the first being a Black. It's a revolution that the Americans are yearning for and they do need a change and finally they have it. Only the most serious issues that they are facing now is economic crisis; recession that happens every 10 years. Dad still owes me an explanation for recession, I'm too lazy to wikipedia and google it.

Talking about America ... big country, friendly neighbourhood, spacious house and surroundings, delicious food and girlfriends. Oh talking about girls, it's difficult to get one here as your neighbour. Most of them like to stay at home. Too bad Malaysia is a hot country, you won't be expecting anyone near your neighbourhood (girls) to jump into the swimming pool in the middle of the day. You know what I mean if you watch Disturbia. Maybe I just keep my hope down in the rabbit hole for the moment.

From my observation, Americans are very good in starting a conversation. In general, the white people. That's why they are friendly. Spontaneous it can be with new people.

"Hey my name is Rashaad. It's nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you too."

Talking about conversation, I met this one girl, 2 years younger than me at my cousin's place. She's cute. ( I hope she doesn't read cuz she has a blog too) I dunno why suddenly that day I feel really - really shy and I only managed to smile at her. I was lost in my words. At that time I took a cake and was walking towards the dining room. She was sitting with her friend, a guy ( well I thought he was her boyfriend actually he was not) at the sofa. I walked passed through her and to my surprise she invited me to seat at the sofa too. And so I replied, "It's okay, no thanks." I was bloody hell stupid, idiot, a sore loser, dumbass, fucker! I cursed myself for every word I said to her and it was the stupidest thing I have said in my whole entire life. She was trying to start a conversation and there I was, politely declined! There goes my hope.

Maybe the Disturbia movie has greatly contributed to what I'm writing here, hoping with my mighty heart, with binoculars in my hand, to start seeing people from different perspective and to know them better and never politely declined.

I'm beginning to like America now ...

Thursday, November 6, 2008


my special apperance in muallaf coming soon yaw! hahaha. the poster was made on june 13 2007.

hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.

tapi kalau takde esok macam mane eh?

palat tu ape?

talking about bm, the first malay movie i watched in cinema is kl menjerit kot. i was forced to watch it as my friends wanted to watch it. i admit i am not a malay moviegoer. most of the time i only watch english movies. i think i have this mental block and perception towards malay film where i think i should totally remove it. not all malay films though.

the second malay movie i watched in cinema was Sepet. I love that movie. The third one was Gubra. The fourth one was Chermin featuring natasha hudson. the movie quite freaking me out padehal crite mcm biase je. and the fifth malay movie i watched in cinema was mukhsin.

so there you go, roughly 5 malay movies at cinemas. how pathetic is that? where whole my life i spend time watching english movies but when it comes to malay movie kire gune jari pon boleh.

okey la maybe my mistake, i socialised with different circle of ppl.

i wanted to watch Kami the other day but was lambasted by my own malay friend's statement. " .. Kami? giler lame!" .. others said, " eh .. i nak tgk movie tu mcm best je. jom la jom la."

in the end i didnt watch it.

some malay movies i do enjoy watching it especially pontianak harum sundal malam 1 & 2, senario, jangan pandang belakang, but that was in astro ria not in cinemas. maybe the quality of malay films are not up to the certain standard of acception like english movies. talking about Cinta .. though i didnt watch it but the critics said it was the best local love story ever told.

oh my fav malay movie of all is non other than Layar Lara featuring Azean Irdawaty, Man Bai and Ida Nerina.

the moral of the story is, when u r driving, always look infront jangan pandang belakang. :P
oh well i mean, do support our local film directly and indirectly.

oh i just watched the the latest james bond, quantum of solace. bapak tak best compared to the previous one. i still prefer casino royale.

okey gotta study now. final exams are just around the mamak corner (bak kate raje izzati). so in the mean time do enjoy your time.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Internship Anyone?

1 month holiday I considered as too long for me, I wonder what I will be doing in the month of December. There are many plans to do, well that will presumably stored in my head instead of writing it down, making a check list will be a great idea but who wants to make it work when you can do instantaniously with a snap of your finger? Only if you have a good memory though. I keep scratching my head for the past few days trying to figure out where I put my books, the room is indeed in messy condition. One week holidays gone just like that. The idea of painting my room in navy blue left abandoned. Maybe I shall do it in December if only I can make an effort.

Talking about internship, I was browsing to PricewaterhouseCoopers Malaysia home page last night when I saw the next intake dates for internship:

3 November 2008 to 31 December 2008 / 30 April 2009
1 December 2008 to 30 January 2009 (Internship placements have been filled)
2 January 2009 to 30 June 2009
9 February 2009 to 15 May 2009

Actually I plan to do internship with an accounting firm preferably in auditing since I will taking F8 next semester together with F7 and F9. I just want to grasp the idea of auditing knowledge that I have learnt in CAT and apply it in the practical area. Well, real-world experience simply cannot be taught in the classroom or included in a textbook. Seeking to enhance my theoretical knowledge with practical experience is a good idea.

Frankly speaking, just to accomodate my time during holidays though. I am still not sure about the plan to go to Egypt this coming holiday. Worst come worst I had rather go there alone rather than stuck here. It will be lousy after all without going anywhere.

But shoot! If you notice carefully I can't really join the internship so to speak in the near future as my class will start early January until middle of June next year unless I abandoned my studies for the whole semester and take part time classes during the weekends! Bloody hell!

There goes my plan.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Tragedi Oktober

I attended my cousin's open house last week and was warmly greeted by his family. Many friends, relatives and peers of his family were there, all were smartly dressed. The foods were delicious, nasi briyani, daging kambing, chocolate fudge, ketupat etc and it was an eye opener for me and I was spoilt with too many choices.

The day went on, until evening there was a match between Manchester United vs Everton. All were glued on the plasma TV. I noticed an Indian guy wearing Batik was standing near the sofa. He was my father's friend. So I greeted him.

I was introduced to him by my dad. Both were in their early 50's. Normally when a conversation takes place, I will be asked about my name and age.

"How old are you young man?"

"This year I am 19."

"Are you serious? You gotta be kidding! It looks 14 to me."

I felt like I was hit by a ball straight in my face. Standing there suddenly I felt young again. 5 years younger. No lah, there's no such thing like that, I was puzzled though. Is it because I don't have sideburns or moustache like normal teenagers of my age do? Or my physical appearance, face or behaviour doesn't reflect of my age?

Sometimes I have problem watching movies listed 18 SG, 18 SX, 18 PL etc at cinemas. Imagine the idea of taking my IC from my wallet and place it on the counter even though I'm already 18. malu giler weyh. It happened to me mostly last year. Now not anymore. :) Even my younger sister managed to pass through.

What more about clubs?

The good thing about it is, well there's so many good reasons to write here. :P Well age is only a number though.

So, I replied to the man wearing Batik, "I am definitely 19 you moron."

Friday, October 31, 2008

Speak Slow & Lovebug

Sorry friends for the lack of updates for the past 2 weeks due to my poor time management, lack of ideas and I'm not in the state of mood to express my skillful writing. haha. Actually I have passion in something else for the moment, not blogging but playing guitar! Blimey, I just got it repaired by Faiz's friend, Brian. We had to replace all the strings and wow finally I learned how to repair it by myself. The worst part of it, I haven't been practising for over a year, I admit I'm not consistent when I'm doing something unless I really have passion in it. So, basically I have to start all over again, the chords etc.

I learned a few new songs too, hehe. This must sounds gay, but I'm practising Jonas Brother's Lovebug. I know now you people definitely gonna hate me, of all the songs! Okey only this particular song I like. Another song is Fall Out Boy's To Take Over, The Break's Over.

Hey the bunny looks real, you almost fall for it kan!
Nazirah's open house at USJ
A remarkable artwork by the Indian Society at college foyer, it was brilliant and I keep wondering how they did that. If it was me, well go figure out what will happen!
Oh this one is an old picture, during break fast.
At Megat's open house. I hate to admit this, but I think I look good in baju Melayu. chewah. Well maybe I should wear it more often. :P haha look at megat's pillow mcm tetek dow hahahaha
Happy birthday to my cousin, Faiz and High School Musical 3 was not bad though I'm not a fan of it.
Awwww, I love you guys

Friday, October 17, 2008

Is it worth taking the risk to date your best friend?

I have these five of friends, we are very closed with each other ever since we were from primary school. We infact have been in the same classes almost every year up to secondary school. After that we went into different paths but we still keep in touch until now. The three of them now are studying in the same university but different course. Two of my friends are studying elsewhere. We constantly go out together, dinner together and almost every week without fail.

Our friendship holds strong until today but yet within the circle of friends there's always ups and downs. We even share our thoughts and knowledge. If one person is sick, the other person will give a helping hand. Where one person is sad, the other person will ease down that person. Most of the time things are fine between us. Never get into fight as far as I am concerned. But within its reach and grasp, there's some event that causes it fasten on the subject matter.

Until this week, I just noticed something rather awkward is happening between us. I'm not in the state of denial but one of my friends likes another friend within this circle. It happened few months ago and I thought it was a joke but rather it turns out to be otherwise. X likes Y but Y doesn't want to prejudice Y's friendship with X just because X likes Y. X has been given some 'hints' to Y but rather Y doesn't want to go into it. Lets just be friends sort of way.

What troubles me is what if they get together and when some event occurs they break up. Wouldn't it be troublesome? Wouldn't it will prejudice our friendship and their relationship? Wouldn't it cause difficulty? I'm not saying that they don't need to be together but how far will it stand? I'm okay as long as they are okay and supportive with one another, then that will be fine to me. I'm against nothing.

There's always some pros and cons when dating your best friend. Some says it is the best decision ever made. It makes your friendship stronger. It eased the awkwardness and made us laugh harder together. Some said the friendship can never be completely the same again after you break up, well only after that then you will know.

As for my sister, 21 years old she has been in a relationship for almost 4 years until she broke up early this July. She rarely communicates with him ever since and the worst part of it, he asked to give back his so called grandfather-father-son ring from her. As for my younger sister, 17 years old she just ended her 3 years relationship last week.

I've never been in a relationship with my best friend and I do not know what is the outcome of it. To me, I dare not to take the risk and silly to think of it to be in a relationship with my best friend. Well that's my opinion and I have nothing against you people. After all we are just teenagers, there's a looonggggg way to go.

What about long distance relationship? hurmmm

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Kim, Kourtney and Khloe

keeping up with the kardashians is an american reality television series that debuted on E! on October 14, 2007. the series documents the daily lives of the kardashian/jenner family, the former of which consists of the ex-wife and children of late attorney robert kardashian.
the series consists of kim, kourtney, khloe, robert kardashians and kendall, kylie, kris and bruce jenner. my fav one in the series is khloe being the youngest of the sisters and the most playful sister on the show. khloe sometimes can be mean and bitchy but i still like her despite her big size nevertheless she still looks hot and sexy. and her attitude mind you. sometimes she likes to bully her mother and does prank to her sisters. well she can be nice as well, most of the time. khloe has not dated any men yet and she and me have the same principle, age is not a factor as long as you enjoy yourself. lol.
did i tell you that kim looks exactly like nicole scherzinger?

in the mean time i suggest for those who haven't watched it, you better catch the series in E! you won't be dissapointed i guarantee you. mark my words. au revoir peeps!

Thursday, October 9, 2008


2nd day of fasting. 4 more days to go. yay. okey i need a break now. all this net makes me addicted. thanks liakshern & leng zhong for accompanied me to clg today. we should do this more often. haha. you knw i'm so much not of myself at home compared to clg. call me a nerd now i dont care. i just want to pass god dammit. geesss, somebody plz bring me to tony roma's i'm sooo hungaryyy. serious shit trial is less than 2 weeks. time to buckle up. no more shishaing, procrastinating and lepaking. go rashaad you can do it for only one week, go have that sleepless nite at clg. muahaha. see ya all in 13 days! sooo loongggg tooo waitttt. arghhhhh.

i'm feeling empty now. someone please cheer me up with your jokes, fill me up with your nicest song i really need 'em ;)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


i guess things won't be the same again,
a far cry this won't be a goodbye,
looking in the deep blue sky,
i thought i could make a change,
a bit at least for the betterment,
now you're gone,
it struck to me how and what i'm supposed to do,
without your guidance i'm totally loss,
but with courage and wisdom i can make it through,
i guess it gives a huge impact on the others but little on me,
cause i feel none when you say bye while the rest are sad in agony,
till time flies by,
it wont be soon before long,
and you'll be back once again,
with a new beautiful song.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Ramadan & Syawal

Good old friends from MRSM, amir top up, faiz, amirul and fahim ogy

One of the days that I've been waiting for to celebrate is Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, which is my top priority in my list. You can see it in my calendar, marked with X. The best part of it, it is the longest holiday I could ask for - a 5 days free from college life, that's the longest break so far in this semester. I never complained though at least it is better than never. So when it comes to Raya, everybody will associate themselves with mouth watering food- lemang, ketupat with kuah kacang, visiting your relatives and neighbours and not to forget angpau.

The worst part of it, most of it did not materialised as what I had expected. At least for some. Well not for the other. So called raya. Or maybe that's what I think in contrary to the children's perception towards Raya, in my opinion most of them totally enjoyed it. That's why I felt when I was a child, the least I have it now. The passing of time.

This year is the least time we visited our relatives' houses both from my father and mother's sides. There's no single family photo of us wearing baju melayu and kebaya. Non. There's no seeking forgiveness to my parents and siblings. There's no duit raya from parents. As you can see, most of them did not materialised. The most boring and dull of Raya celebration in my 19 years of history.

Until came 4th day of Raya. We had doa selamat for my sis, she's leaving to Alexandria this Monday. That's the highlight of the week, the best part of all. Where our relatives from both sides met up at least for once, we could talk face to face, exchange ideas and ask for forgiveness. All far away from Terengganu to the nearest in Seremban. At least my mood turned out to be fabulous. Ah, what a day.

Talking about food, I've gained weight for 2 kg in 4 days. Great achievement there I assume. I have high metabolic rates anyway. No matter how much I consume, the outcome is very minimal. Better start exercising now Ramadan is finally over. ;)

Thanks Uncle Fiz, this is the best sms Raya I've received so far,

Assalamu'alaikum, sorry to disturb, it's your guest Ramadhan here. Just want to thank you for entertaining me this month, but as my departure nears with tears I beg you to entertain my brother Syawaal adn the rest of them as you have me. Please do not fold up you musalla & pack away your Quran, keep your heart firm on Iman, I will definitely be back next year, INSYAALLAH. But will you?

Monday, September 29, 2008

CAT Graduation Day

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, welcome to Sunway University College CAT Graduation day. Please be seated and let me bring you to Sunway Convention Centre lives from Sunway Piramid. A big round of applause to all of us. We make it through finally. But this is just the beginning. A real journey is right ahead of us. So how was the graduation? Let the pictures do the talking ...

1. Presenting Manesh and Nazirah!

2. and here are the amigos ... all the way from pakistan .. syamara, sheetal, nadia, me, ling, manesh, imran, chrisa and naz
3. b boys .. haha

5. hey am not ready yet!
7. sam and his geng, err green or blue?
8. haha, this is the best pic of manesh looks like he's doing roti canai pose
9. zen, me, manesh, brian
10. hermione granger, ronald weasley, harry potter.. haha
11. mun yee and kok hung!
12. there's tahir
14. let me put a smile on her face, whjy so serious? :P

15. james bond and james bond's girl haha
16. lexy, patricia .. woopss, i mean patrick
18. humphhh
19. a surprise visit by naz's family
21. an attempt by brian ..
24. my fanatic fans .. muahahah
25. star bright
26. 27.
28. 29.